Oh my, I've bought an Oasis cushion.
http://cgi.ebay.de/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=270149820180
Why???


Oh and the fact that Athlete used to be a Christian band cracks me up and makes me feel a bit uneasy at the same time.

Current Music: Ride - Nowhere (live 92)

My primary school is in the newspaper today. A whole page. About five kids beating up another kid and then filming it and putting it on youtube. Then it says what a bad school it is and how it has 80 % foreigners and I got mixed feelings reading that. Because of course technally speaking I didnt learn so much there but on the other hand I came out alright, didnt I? I think it was important that I grew up in the enviorment I grew up. However I also remember that everyone always said we were the nicest class and the best and we actually were mixed. I mean, we had people from Turkey, Germany, Russia, Greece and so on, while the other classes only had turkish and arabic people. Which of course leads to problems. I mean, except for the obvious one that they wont talk German to each other. I feel I dont have much to do with it anymore, though. It is odd. (The school is right across the street, so I see it everyday)

Current Music: bigger stronger - coldplay (in my head)

Wow, Interpol tickets for November will go on sale in two days! 
I'm excited but  a bit anxious, as everyone said they were shite the last dates.
They got quite a few months to get better again though.
And I cheated and listened to Heinrich Manoevre today. And I like it.
And Paul Banks only listens to Hip Hop nowadays. 
I mean, he said that, not me. 

Good night.

I wonder who will buy that: 
http://cgi.ebay.de/COLDPLAY-CD-Safety-EP-VERY-RARE-UK-3-track-ORIGINAL_W0QQitemZ130125154635QQihZ003QQcategoryZ2250QQrdZ1QQssPageNameZWD2VQQcmdZViewItem

I mean, I would pay quite a few euros to own "Bigger Stronger" on CD and to have one limited to something as 500 copies but HONESTLY who will pay that much money? Lets just check how many months of pocket money that is... over two years. Two years of pocket money on a single, not even on vinyl but as a crappy tiny disk. And its not mint!

Im disgustingly tired. If it wasnt for that stupid homework thing I'd be in bed already. My ears and my head hurt and I just want to go and dream of Johnny Marr, Morrissey, Radiohead and Coldplay.
The new Coldplay website is adorable.

Current Music: bigger stronger - coldplay

I'm thinking about cutting down my computer time. I mean, really cutting it down. As in... stop spending hours on silly music boards. I mean, I love talking about Colin Greenwood's brilliance and Jonny's haircut a lot but it's just so stupid spending so much time there.
Also, I feel very childish, but I'm jealous. It's just a stupid Radiohead fanboard but reading those discussions between this one girl and the other just makes me really agressive. I feel left out and I just want the other one to fuck off, when I know they like each other a lot more and talk via msn anyway.
I know this sounds ridiculous, thats why I dont want to go there that much anyway. I always want to read there fanfictions though and post mine. I just dont want to spend all my time there feeling bad and desperate and thinking about all the other interesting things I could be doing.
I like livejournal though. I mean, I will keep reading here. If it's just that I'm interested in being updated on the lives of quite a few of you.
I don't understand how I got addicted to last.fm. It's pointless. I still love it. It just pisses me off that I cant do the same thing with the music I listen to all the time when Im not at the computer.

Oh, it was my 18th birthday and it was okay. The day started shit but I got so cute presents by my friends. I got a tshirt with Coldplay lyrics all over it. And Salome and Juliane gave me brilliant presents. A  tambourine with pictures of my favourite bands on there and a Radiohead EP, a Morrissey/Marr biography, a spongebob pin that is really cute (even though I really dont know that show well, I think Ive watched it twice) and the best thing was: An Idlewild fanfiction. It was definitly fucked up, but really good. Its amazing how much Salome's writing has improved over this year. They also got me "Closer" on vinyl. Joy Division is really something one should own on vinyl. Maybe I just say that because Unknown Pleasures is so pretty and I only have it as a tiny CD. 

I read an Interpol interview today. Paul Banks anyway. So... he only listens to Hip Hop, he says. Everything else doesnt have the same impact or something. I didnt buy the magazine because I didnt want to spend 5 euros on it. And I couldnt decide whether I should buy this one or an English one for 11 euros. I even forgot why I wanted to get it. It wasnt mainly for the Keane article but I dont know what it was then...
So Keane. I listen to Keane. Keane arent bad. Now, lets look at the stuff I like, shall we? Snow Patrol, Coldplay, Keane, Travis, Radiohead, Athlete, R.E.M., The Smiths, Idlewild... That's such a clichee. The odds are that I dont like The Bends but only their later stuff. Actually its a clichee and a contradiction at  the same time. Interpol, BRMC, Zoé, Unbelievable Truth. Lets take a look at my lastfm list of last week... There's all I mentioned plus a bit of German music. I really shouldnt care about this. I shouldnt. But thats like saying I should stop caring about music. I just need to relax about it. About everything. But it doesnt work. This morning I looked at my CDs and thought "what a pile of shit" even though I love some of them really much. The scariest thing is when music doesnt help anymore, I'm always scared of it happening again. I had it a few times in my life and mostly it doesnt last long but it scares the shirt out of me and then I'm there and everything is even more dreary. I feel so lost when I don't even have music anymore. 

Im preparing my Art speech right now as you can see. I hate my arts class. I hate some of the girls so much. I wouldnt care about them if they werent in my class and made my life more miserable.

I got a keyboard for my birthday. It's very nice. I sort of got a cramp in my left arm from trying to play Thom Yorke's "Analayse" for too long. 

I got a new favourite Radiohead song. I mean, I got lots of favourite Radiohead songs but my current is "Climbing Up the Walls". I can't get over the fact how brilliant it is. 
And I stand with my point from when I was 13, Hail to the Thief is so good and so underrated. 

I also got a "teach yourself icelandic" book. Actually thats not the name. Its German, apparently its the only German book to teach yourself Icelandic though. I quite like it. Its weird  that sleeping sounds exactly like the German word for 'couch'. 

This is a long entry, I know. I hope you dont mind. I'm still waiting for my Ride boxset. But they wrote me and told me it took so long (errr, it should be "takes") because they had a fire in the room where they got all the CDs. 

I have to stop to panic all the time.
I was at the hospital today and apart from telling me that I've lost weight (erm, thanks for pointing it out?) the doctor only told me that xcept for my sugar everything's fine with my blood, well, what they checked anyway. The psycho-person will call me next week to make an appointment. I'm not even sure what she is, the other doctor only kept saying "your therapy" ,I guess it's called therapist then, huh? 

At the end of this diet I wont be able to eat pure tofu anymore, I swear. I'm craving apple juice and soy sauce. I don't understand. I'm very much looking forward to it. Still 2 weeks and one day till the juice, I think! Great. I can do that, right? Right? Whatever. 

I just want to go to bed and sleep until all the crap is over. The doctor asked if I was looking forward to the holidays and I said "No", which is true. They will be the last before I have to take my finals and finish school and all these scary things. And I need to do a lot of stuff before that.

Also, I think, things will never be great between me and her. Because she is who she is and I am me. I couldnt put that more stupid. 

Its hot here. Its too hot. 

ThomYorkeColinGreenwoodEdOBrienPhilSelwayJonnyGreenwood

You think Im scared of the perspective of Radiohead releasing their new album soon? you have no idea...

Current Music: I might be wrong (live) - radiohead

Second pointless post today:
I just walked in on my mum listening to the Fratellis.
This scared me.

Current Music: babyshambles... from my mother`s computer! - love you but youre green

The fact that Gem Archer of Oasis played on a Nine Inch Nails record still cracks me up.

Current Music: nine inch nails - fist fuck

I think I've fallen in love! (or I'm falling)



I've been listening to this album for eight hours straight now and it keeps getting better. Or I just get more used to it. Just how beautiful is 'Here and Now' ? 
Oh God. It feels great. This is exciting but it's always so heartwrenching to. So much energy.
At least I neednt worry about seeing them live or any of this crap. The good side of a long-gone band. Although they still might do something, you never know.
The closest I'll ever come to seeing them though was probably seeing Oasis two years ago. 

Current Music: Here and Now - Ride

So... I'm listening to shoegazer music for the first time. Like really listening to it. It's so strange when you listen to Ride and you get how many bands you know were influences/stole from them. I mean this one German band Slut totally ripped off 'Decay' in most of their songs. Or maybe they were just Shoegazer fans in general...

I'`m not seeing Willy Mason because it's sold out. Idiot. Then decided I didnt want to see Art Brut afterall. Not sure why. Juliane said she didnt think she could make it to Modest Mouse in time because of the venue, so I'm not going there either. And those pricks of Kings of Leon cost 30 Euros... Not sure I want to pay so much. Although they were so brilliant when I saw them 2/3 years back. 

I bought Unbelievable's Sorrythankyou today. I felt slightly bad because it stood in the Radioheadsection and it got this sticker on there, too. Aw. *pats Andy Yorke's head* I almost got the Kashmir album I've been meaning to get but now I ordered it for 7 euro less. Better, I guess.

I spend too much time thinking about music.

All the usual, had a fight with youknowwho, sort of hung up on her.
I forgot my parents and I are going to Bavaria for the weekend. I dont want my grandparents to point out that I gained weight. Thanks a lot, I know. That's because since I'm in Germany I actually starting eating lunch again. And breakfast for that matter... and because being vegan confuses me, too.


Also I think I really really like Roddy Woomble. Not the teenybopperish 'Oh god, he's so hot and my soulmate!!'-way (thats what overtakes me when Im too tired and thinking about Thom Yorke), I just think he seems like such a genuine and nice person. Plus he loves Berlin and Iceland.

If I really study Scandinavia Studies at the University I feel like I'm giving in into 'all that evil'. I don't want to end up working for just one of these companies, feeling like I got no real purpose. Shame I'm living in this fantasy world of mine and it's the only thing that keeps me going. My ripoff of someone else's creativity. I just already know fear I wont have enough time for this. If I really did what I wanted in my life I'd... so Language Sciences, but that subject is so pointless! I mean, it sounds great but who needs someone who compares Armenian with Hebrew? Right.  And there's no such thing as "writing for a good music magazine" as subject at university. I wish I wasnt that lazy with maths and physics because working as a scientist doesnt sound that evil to me. And not as pointless as becoming a bad artist. I couldn't do that anyway. I never want to study art, ever. And noone would want me doing creative writing. And journalism is such a pointless thing to study. There are way too many journalists in Germany and still if you want to get into the good universities it's almost impossible.
Oh, and they dont offer Chinese in Berlin anymore. Only East Asian studies but ... eh... that sounds like scandinavian ones only about countries I'm less interested in. 
I wish I was talented or something. Or I wish my passion wasnt for things I can't do well. Or not the way anyone profits from it.  What am I okay at? Yes. Languages. There we were. Crap.

 

Current Music: Here and Now - Ride

then what a wacko am I considering this what my favourite band looks like? Geez, they look so pseudo. I mean, Paul and Daniel look good and Sam still looks like he's in the Mafia so it's especially: How can my favourite bassist look
SO ridiculous? Thank God, I can seperate the music and the image!
The longer i look at the picture the better Paul looks. I'm finally really getting really exited about the new album.

Current Music: Ether. Kashmir (So damn good!)